no, I said.

no,

      I said.

what I meant to say

was that I will wait.

      I have waited.

I am waiting

      and I will keep waiting.

I am barely conscious,

      thinking now,

in the wee hours of the morning.

but the significance is not lost.

      the calculation.

 the risk.

I understand.

but this is not science.

nothing adds up.

       nothing fits.

there is no right.

there is no wrong.

there is only the sensation

of your small hand

folding

        into mine.

07/15/2018  AAW

not afraid

It

is more

than I am able

     to define.

It

is something

that has yet to be

discovered

or

      named.

It

threatens

to encompass

      all things.

I

am

not

      afraid.

07/15/2018  AAW

my lady of the mercies

night falls

with you far away

wrestling with the great waves

of the pacific ocean

my hands

go searching the depths

of my memories

for the feel of your soft face

         so soft

         so soft

         I can feel you

I can smell you

salty tang on your skin

smell of the sea

wrapped around you like a blanket

       my lady of the sea

       my lady of the mountains

       my lady of the mercies

I am calling

for your return

my candle flickering softly

from this patient,

darkened room.

7/14/2018 AAW

words may not be enough

You have stolen my heart-

plucked it like a ripened fruit

from a dream within a dream

of the deepest blue sea.

And I have stolen your pen,

lover,

to write you these words.

In truth, 
words may not be enough.

In your language, in mine.

But I will build for you

a soft bed

with the words that I have.

You may lay your head there,

between my breast

and the vibration in my throat

that aches to sing

                                 for you.

7/14/2018  AAW

return

As I near the mountains,
the placenta falls away.
   I am born again
in the silent sound of the sun
baking the earth under my feet.






7/03/2018 AAW